Friday, March 28, 2014

Quick family update

I realized that I haven't done a family update on here in ages, so I thought I'd do a short one.  2014, so far, has been a fairly good year. 

Personally, I started off the New Year trying to get back into shape.  I did well with exercising and watching my eating thru January and February.  March has been a different story due to death, sickness and other interruptions but I haven't gained any weight (yay for nursing) and am planning to jump back in as the new month begins next week.  My Lent "fast" from Facebook has been going well and God decided that I needed an even bigger break from technology and had my phone break.  I'm using a temporary phone right now (same number) and will hopefully have my phone back in a week or so.  I'm also reading thru several books and am hoping to keep my reading up throughout the year.  I've also gotten some organizing and decluttering done.

Matt & I are both looking forward to some fun things this year including a vacation with family, going to see The Phantom of the Opera (finally fulfilling this dream :) ), and running some obstacle course races together.  It's always great when we can do things together that we enjoy so much and continue to "date" each other.

Ethan is in fourth grade this year and is doing very well.  He loves his teacher and classmates.  One of his best friends moved away over the Christmas break so that was a hard adjustment for him but we're planning to keep in touch once they get a permanent address.  He loves to read and has really been enjoying the "Eragon" series this year.  He's also really gotten into the "Narnia" series and will be performing in a play of "The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe" at school.  He turned 10 in December and it's bittersweet to see how much he's changing; he's definitely not a little boy anymore and is in the tween stage.  It's fun to have him "get" the jokes that we tell and be able to converse with him on an older level but it's also sad to realize how quickly time has passed.

Hailey is in third grade now and love it.  She loves her teacher and is thriving at school.  She also loves to read and has about 5 books that she's reading thru, depending on her mood.  She'll be 9 in a month and is also not so little anymore.  She and I have had some great conversations about growing up but can still be silly together.  She LOVES "Frozen" and has memorized most of the songs and a lot of the movie (much to her brother's annoyance).  She loves music (just like her mama) and we have a lot of fun singing together. 

Keira is in Kindergarten this year and is doing well.  She also loves her teacher and is very excited about learning to read.  She can now read simple sentences and is learning her phonics rules.  She loves to draw cards and pictures for her siblings and parents.  She also loves to hang out watching movies and is crazy about anything "My Little Pony". 

Titus will be four in a couple weeks and continues to be our ball of energy.  Hailey said the other day that "life would be too quiet without Titus" and she's right.  He loves superheros, dinosaurs, cuddles, Doctor Who, Skylanders and any game that he can play.  He's recently discovered Mastermind so we play a lot of that.  He also plays Stratego, Candyland and Diego 1,2,3.  He also loves any type of art project.  He keeps me company while the other kids are at school and he dotes on his baby sister. 

Amy will be six months old next week and is growing well.  She loves to be held and be in the middle of everything.  I always say the more that is going on around her, the happier she is (you can definitely tell she's the youngest of five).  She loves her walker, rattles, and any other toy she can get her hands on.  She also loves her siblings and gives lots of squeals, smiles and giggles.  Ethan taught her how to blow raspberries so she enjoys that also.  She isn't moving around much yet but if we put her into a sitting position she can hold herself for a bit.

Here are Amy's 6 month picture and Titus' 4yr picture:


Monday, March 24, 2014

Lessons (almost) halfway thru lent

Once again, I'm seeing how little I do see of God's plan and how important it is to take every day as it comes and trust Him for each step.  Here it is almost halfway thru Lent and so much has happened that I could never have imagined yet God is faithful and has shown in so many ways His love, care and guidance.

At the beginning of Lent I thought I knew what God wanted me to focus on.  I would give up Facebook and focus on weeding out material possessions and simplifying our home thru less stuff and more streamlined meal plans.  Over the past few weeks God has shown me how small my sights were set. 

First, it was the realization of how much in life is simply noise; literally and figuratively.  It was humbling to realize how much of my time was focused on answering the dings and rings of notifications from my phone.  Turning off Facebook quieted the majority of those interruptions; and you know what, it was calming, freeing. 

Next, I found myself reflecting on those possessions, but not on how many but on what they said about me.  My grandmother was recently admitted to a nursing home and while helping to clean out her apartment I thought, who would someone see if they walked thru my house without knowing anything about me?  What does my home reflect?  What does it show as my priorities?  What is truly important to pass on to my kids? To use for ministry to others? And what would those who know me see as worth keeping? 

A little less than two weeks ago I received a phone call saying that my sister in law had passed away unexpectedly.  She was just a few weeks past her 40th birthday and, while she had struggled with health issues, what took her was completely unrelated to those issues.  I won't say a lot about our relationship other than that I always struggled to love her.  She and I never meshed well.  There's nothing like an untimely death to make one take a long hard look at how they're living and her's has really turned my focus on my wrong attitudes and reactions. 

I fully admit that I have a hard time being loving to all people; to having that impartiality that the Bible teaches in the book of James.  I can be reactionary.  In fact, a couple months ago i started an inductive study titled "God's love alive in you" by Kay Arthur (I'm still slowly making my way thru this study).  I recognize that this is an area that I need a lot of growth in.  Over the past couple weeks I've thought a lot about my relationship with my sister in law.  It was work for me to be around her. I would pray, plan out conversations and then something would be said and I'd react badly and fail.

God is teaching me, showing me that people like my sister in law are there to be the iron sharpening iron.  To be the sandpaper rubbing off the rough edges and polishing so that each of us can better reflect His image.  So, yes.  I'm grateful for the time I knew her and for how God used her in my life, for the rough spots that she showed me that still need work.  Namely, the fact that I need to see each person how God sees them, with the value and care that He has for them.

There are still plenty of "sandpaper people" (check out the book "Sandpaper People", it's excellent!) in my life and I'm sure I'll fail over and over but my prayer is that by God's grace and strength His love would increase in my heart and pour out to those around me.  That I would become less as He becomes more.

If you've read this far in my ramblings, thank you. I would ask for your prayers as I continue on this journey and also for my brother as he adjusts to life without his wife and as a single dad. I'd like to end this post by sharing a song that has really spoken to me about what it means to be God's love to the world.



A poem: God is in every tomorrow.

I have a long blog post rattling around in my brain but I haven't had time to sit and put it all down.  So, in the meantime, I wanted to share this poem (I can't remember if I've shared it before but it's worth sharing again even if I have) :) that I tore out of a magazine ages ago.  I recently found it in a box of papers and it's very fitting for recent events that our family has been facing.

God Is In Every Tomorrow

God is in every tomorrow,
Therefore I live for today,
Certain of finding at sunrise,
Guidance and strength for the day;
Power for each moment of weakness;
Hope for each moment of pain, 
Comfort for every sorrow,
Sunshine and joy after rain.

God is in every tomorrow,
Planning for you and for me;
E'en in the dark will I follow,
Trust where my eyes cannot see,
Stilled by His promise of blessing,
Soothed by the touch of His hand, 
Confident in His protection,
Knowing my life-path is planned.

God is in every tomorrow, 
Life with its changes may come,
He is behind and before me,
While in the distance shines Home!
Home where no thoughts of tomorrow
Ever can shadow my brow, 
Home in the presence of Jesus,
Through all eternity now!
~Author Unknown